hehe.

[like_a_clown]

I made an entry about a half-hour ago, and it is no longert there because upon rereading, I make it sound as if my dissatisfaction with school is the fault of the school. I understand that it isn't. I don't FEEL like it's my fault I'm lazy and bored--it seems impossible to motivate myself. more and more often--but I KNOW that I need to summon my own energy. The shit feelings I have about school lately feel like they come in from the outside, and I often have escapist fantasies of an easy, simple life in a pleasant yet not-too-demanding job and a lively group of friends. But I know school's what's best for me in the long run, andI know that if I can't get it together it's nobody's fault but my own.

blech.