and again, TRIUMPH. sort of.

[like_a_clown]

the philo paper is finished. it sucks mad ass, though...instead of formulating a theory to combat peter singer (which I found nearly impossible since I AGREE with him) I kinda came up with this sidestep about how it's impossible to consider individual rights on a grand scale--you have to aggregate the stats about what certain groups need, and act accordingly. it didn't answre the question, however...but as long as I get a C I'm good, because the class is pass/fail.

and I submitted my SEB villanelle and my car crash sonnet to the undergrad lit journal today. if they don't get published, I might be hurt (but I am trying to be objective) but if they do I am afraid people will laugh at me for a sap.

god. I'm afraid of rejection all OVER the place lately. Story of my life...when has that not been the case? but it seems rather acute. or maybe I'm hyper-aware of it because I'm getting over it...lately, I have made strides in assertiveness (especially with a certain unnamed homie) and self-esteem, largely due to the realistic and neutral view of myself that I have been trying for a long time to cultivate. Let's hope this is The Dawn of a New Era for me ;)

or at least that I'm not moving BACKWARD.