ohhhh god...

[like_a_clown]

I want nothing more than to go out to terry's room, hug kate (I hear her, and she doesn't know I'm here) and listen to horace andy with them. well, maybe for kris to be here to enjoy this with me. but that's all.

but I'm talking to someone who won't let herself be helped. trying to crack the shell. it's not working--the best I ever can do is tire her out and wait for her to fall asleep. and I can't tear myself awy from the puter cause I'm afraid of what she'll do or feel...

fuuuuckkkckckc.